What #meditation is teaching me about #faith

I have just completed the book Mindfulness: A practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world by Prof Mark Williams. It has been of real benefit to me. Like many people I have tended to live in my head, always thinking about what I am doing next or worrying about what might be, rather than being present to the life I am actually living.

And like many people, it made me ill.

Not just through the depression I have had a running battle with for years, but also making my faith life unwell, causing me to struggle to grow with Jesus, who I have handed my life over to.

Meditation has taught me how to pray again. The two can be the same, but often are not. I meditate on my breath and body, when I pray, that being present is turned towards God.

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And that’s what meditation is teaching me. How to rest my full awareness on God. He who is ever present, while I have been absent, to my own life and to His central place in it.

I feel like I have come home again.

And my mind begins to heal, I find my spirit is waking up to the presence of Jesus, right here, right now, because as C.S. Lewis says:

For the Present is the point at which time touches eternity

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One last thought while at #yfcconf14

Below are some prayers taken from my evening prayers via pray the hours. How relevant they all seem to this week:

The hymn
Spirit of God, descend upon my heart; Wean it from earth, through all its pulses move; Stoop to my weakness, mighty as you are, And make me love you as I ought to love. I ask no dream, no prophet ecstasies, No sudden rending of the veil of clay, No angel visitant, no opening skies; But take the dimness of my soul away. Have you not bid me love you, God and King? All, all your own, soul, heart, strength and mind. I see your cross; there teach my heart to cling. O let me seek you, and O let me find! Teach me to feel that you are always nigh; Teach me the struggles of the soul to bear. To check the rising doubt, the rebel sigh, Teach me the patience of unanswered prayer. Teach me to love you as your angels love, One holy passion filling all my frame; The kindling of the heaven-descended Dove, My heart an altar, and your love the flame.
George Croly

The Prayer Appointed for the Week
Father in heaven, who at the baptism of Jesus in the River Jordan proclaimed him your beloved Son and anointed him with the Holy Spirit: Grant that all who are baptized into His Name may keep the covenant they have made, and boldly confess him as Lord and Savior; who with you and the Holy Spirit lives and reigns, one God, in glory everlasting. Amen.†

The Concluding Prayer of the Church
O Lord my God, to you and to your service I devote myself, body, soul, and spirit. Fill my memory with the record of your mighty works; enlighten my understanding with the light of your Holy Spirit; and may all the desires of my heart and will center in what you would have me do. Make me an instrument of your salvation for the people entrusted to my care, and grant that by my life and teaching I may set forth your true and living Word. Be always with me in carrying out the duties of my faith. In prayer, quicken my devotion; in praises, heighten my love and gratitude; in conversation give me readiness of thought and expression; and grant that, by the clearness and brightness of your holy Word, all the world may be drawn into your blessed kingdom. All this I ask for the sake of your Son our Savior Jesus Christ. Amen.†
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