#poetry Thankyou Mr. T.

Thank you.

I never say it enough

Not about what matters.

So easy to say thank you

For a door held open

A cup of tea

Or a fork passed.

But what I really want to say is…

Thank you for loving me

At my most morning grouch,

Thank you for holding me

In my darkest grieving. 

Thank you for doing what you said you would right at the start, 

Even though it has meant sickness as well as health,

More skint than rich,

More moving house,

And changing jobs 

Than either of us imagined.

Thank you so much for making me laugh so much,

For showing interest in the garden, 

When you could be gaming.

Thank you for being

My life partner in crime,

But most of all,

Thank you 

for being you. 

#mindfulness, #God and the present moment

I’m on day 29 of the headspace app, and at the moment I am supposed to be doing a particular mindful exercise. Each time I get up or sit down I am to be present to the movement as it happens.
It is ridiculously difficult. Who would have thought?
I mean all it is is getting up and sitting down! It’s a good exercise and makes the point about being present to your own life.

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While I was thinking about all this, God spoke to me, and said:

You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
Psalm 239:2

Oh wow ❤

Think about it, I’m not even that present to myself, and yet God is.

What love. It fills me with joy just thinking about it.
I long to be present to God in that way, and present to other people. Surely this kind of presence, of selfless attention, is the road to loving God and neighbour, the two things Jesus says everything else hangs on.

Perhaps my mindfulness meditation and practices might help me with this most beautiful of things.

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Dayenu

I just read this article about the generosity of God:

http://danielleshroyer.com/the-word-dayenu

And it reminded me of a conversation I had had about how hard it can be to ‘get’ the love of God. We are so used to everything being conditional, so used to the mist beautiful love coming from imperfect people.
So it’s a real mind bender when we come into contact with love which really is unconditional, and so… Large.

You defeated death and wiped away our sin. It would have been more than enough, but you daily draw us close to you in compassion and kindness.

You made all these and that would have been enough, but then you caused me to see and enjoy them:

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Joy comes when you let it

Life never quite does what you expect it to do and we all have things we wish were different.
But what do you do? Mourn the life you don’t have and miss the one you do?

No, better to celebrate what you do have, because that’s the route to happiness.
R and I don’t have children and I have learnt that it is better to give thanks than to keep bitterness.

And besides, who couldn’t be happy with this in their life:

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Music: Pharrell Williams – Pharrell Williams – Happy (from “Despicable Me 2”)
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