I just read this article about the generosity of God:
And it reminded me of a conversation I had had about how hard it can be to ‘get’ the love of God. We are so used to everything being conditional, so used to the mist beautiful love coming from imperfect people.
So it’s a real mind bender when we come into contact with love which really is unconditional, and so… Large.
You defeated death and wiped away our sin. It would have been more than enough, but you daily draw us close to you in compassion and kindness.
You made all these and that would have been enough, but then you caused me to see and enjoy them:
I have just completed the book Mindfulness: A practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world by Prof Mark Williams. It has been of real benefit to me. Like many people I have tended to live in my head, always thinking about what I am doing next or worrying about what might be, rather than being present to the life I am actually living.
And like many people, it made me ill.
Not just through the depression I have had a running battle with for years, but also making my faith life unwell, causing me to struggle to grow with Jesus, who I have handed my life over to.
Meditation has taught me how to pray again. The two can be the same, but often are not. I meditate on my breath and body, when I pray, that being present is turned towards God.
And that’s what meditation is teaching me. How to rest my full awareness on God. He who is ever present, while I have been absent, to my own life and to His central place in it.
I feel like I have come home again.
And my mind begins to heal, I find my spirit is waking up to the presence of Jesus, right here, right now, because as C.S. Lewis says:
For the Present is the point at which time touches eternity
This year instead of resolutions, I have decided to go for goals.
The difference may well only be in my head, but it feels much more positive and doable to me.
They are fairly predictable and revolve around my relationship with:
But they are all things which feel hopeful. It has been born out of the middle of a mindfulness course at the moment.
It is helping me take a different approach to life. Instead of fighting the things I want to change, i am instead, learning a more peaceful approach.
For example instead of fighting the temptation to eat my own weight in chocolate, I am learning to walk away and do something more productive instead.
Its how I have been teaching teens to deal with bullies for years.
Anyway, the bible puts it this way:
If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.
I think that includes living at peace with myself.
To finish, one of my goals is to journal smash book style each week. This is today’s page:
And if you would like the journal cards I made, here they are:
Happy New Year x
The light is nearly upon us
Dark has lost its way
Its power ebbs
As the light flows
The King of glory
My husband and i have benefited greatly from the work if Rob Bell, and right now we are loving his and Kristen Bell’s new book The Zimzum of Love.
Its nice to see a sensible word about him, take a look:
Photo via Relevant Magazine
I really love the hymn “Cornerstone” by Hillsong and it inspired today’s poem and doodle. You can hear the song HERE.
Tethered to your heart.
The knowledge of your love;
The bonds that hold
My head above the water.
All you are,
Is all that matters
In the storms of my mind,
Your light is truth.
I find my way
Through the darkest days
The wisdom of your words
You know you are loved when… You wake up with the dream of
“Christ alone, cornerstone
weak made strong
In the power of love”
Still ringing in your ears.
When your morning scripture turns out to be
” Don’t be grieved; for the joy of Yahweh is your strength” Nehemiah 8:10
And when the rain seems beautiful and the dark clouds glorious:
A moments quiet
A cup of tea
Burbling in the background
I take time
To turn to You.
A moment of eternity in the ordinary,
Your love Upbrimming
Through my mind,
The wonder of it all
Filling the room
Yesterday was very much like the British weather… Wait 20 minutes and it changes. R and I swung between happiness and the shock of him being made redundant with no warning.
And I swing between calm faith that God has things is hand and blind panic.
But the truth of the matter is, He is eternal and his purposes are true, whatever the weather.
Like it says:
From the ends of the earth I call to you,
I call as my heart grows faint;
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
3 For you have been my refuge,
a strong tower against the foe.
Psalm 61: 2-3
And that’s the long and short if it.
I was reminded of His faithfulness as I walked the dog yesterday, as creation has always been a place of refuge, a strong tower of his presence and love:
I am reminded that Jesus is the rock who is “higher than l”, and that as we look to him for all we need, he really is our stronghold.